Several years ago, I thought life was absolutely hopeless. That may be pretty surprising to some that see me online or have read my About Me page, as I seem cheery, humorous, and optimistic. Well back then, if something didn’t come up for me that I could cling onto like a raft on torrent waters, I wouldn’t be alive today. It’s crazy to type those words out and to really see that I could have died. But on some weird way to flip this dark topic, beautiful possibilities are endless. Magic is real. Let me explain.
In the past, I’ve bounced from one psych ward to the second. I was really just waiting for the end of my life to meet me. I didn’t think that my existence on life was making a difference. In fact, I felt it did the opposite. Wherever I went and whoever I met, I felt I was always hurting them and so I concluded that whatever space I entered, I tainted it. I believed I was toxic waste on Earth. But then, I happened to meet my now husband, who is my twin flame.
“Unlike what twin flame websites state, there actually wasn’t some sort of zingy-butterfly moment or anything to suggest from the Universe that he was my twin flame.”
I was dating left and right, meeting whomever I could so that I could distract me from myself and my incessant mind that kept eating me alive. I was in a relationship at the time when I met my twin flame, who we’ll call Zack. I worked at a sushi restaurant and he was a new hire, so I had to train him. I didn’t think anything of our first meet, I just thought he was a calm and gentle person. Unlike what twin flame websites state, there actually wasn’t some sort of zingy-butterfly moment or anything to suggest from the Universe that he was my twin flame. For months, we just became really cool friends. Little did I know, he caught moments of my personality that made him realize how good of a fit we were. He never made a move though, not even so much as a hint that he liked me. But, I didn’t see him that way and besides, I was dating someone at the time.
Fast forward a few months later, my then relationship ended. There happened to be a party at work, where good food and drinks were involved. It was getting pretty late so me, Zack, and some other co-workers drunkenly headed to Zack’s apartment to continue hanging out. One thing led to another and Zack and I ended up getting pregnant!
Just kidding. We all know what ensued that night, but of course it was also the start of our twin flame journey. Our souls were about to realize they were One and our love for each other was going to push our boundaries of what we thought self-growth was… Okay, it was really only me who tested his limits, but to be fair there were a ton of demons in my closet that ruined my perspective on anything in life. For almost a month my inner chaos unleashed itself in our relationship and I didn’t know much he could handle. I came to realize that there was no breaking point for him. My problems became his, which he instinctively created a space in his heart for me to rest my broken wounds. One night I was about to tell him my deepest, darkest fears. The ones that tormented me, that caused me to hurt others first and then myself. When I told him, it wasn’t until a heartbeat later that he held me closer and said, “You know, years from now we’ll laugh at this moment!” That was an example of how brightly he spun everything, but also his testament that he loved absolutely everything about me; The dark and the light.
“You don’t need to be completely whole until you’ve found the one.”
I knew he was my twin flame as soon as I knew he was the one. Years before I met him, readers have told me that I had a twin flame. I was broken and hopeless at the time, so I obviously couldn’t wait to meet my lifelong partner that would swoop me out of my hell. You see, there are two points I want to make here. One, you don’t need to be completely whole until you’ve found the one. That is a myth because that’s not what happened to me! Secondly, you will know you’ve met your twin flame when you’re not solely focused on the signs and clues from the Universe. You’ll know when you’re already experiencing unity with this person. It will be love that makes you feel brighter, stronger, happier, and more positive. Speaking of signs from the Universe, I kept seeing 2:22 when Zack and I began dating. A customer at the restaurant even said out loud, “Hmm, it’s 2:22,” with a smile.
“The Universe conspires with angels, God, and higher beings to line up synchronicities during divine timing.”
When the timing is right for twin flames to unite, there is no stopping the Universe. When Zack and I were just barely getting to know each other on the romantic level, the Universe was like, “Aha, perfect timing. Now I’m going to do everything I possibly can to pave the way for these two!” It was winter break for Zack at his community college, which gave us ample time to discover each other. His ex-girlfriend who he still wanted to re-kindle with suddenly called him to tell Zack she was getting married. I also have to point out that while they were dating in the past, they were long distance and never in the same country. In fact, they always happened to be on opposite sides of the globe during their relationship. I believe it was the Universe saying that she wasn’t the one. I was also seeing someone else in addition to Zack, but the other guy didn’t communicate much with me during winter break. All of this was within the span of 2 weeks! The Universe conspires with angels, God, and higher beings to line up synchronicities during divine timing.
I also have to mention that my intuition skyrocketed. As soon as I realized Zack was the one for me, I began to trust my intuition and watched it strengthen with each week. Some moments I’d happen to turn to look at Zack and I’d get hit with messages echoing from the future that I’d always be seeing his face even 50 years from now. Since my intuition grew, I’m now a full-blown highly sensitive empath that brings angel messages to everyone. [If you’re interested, you can book a reading with me here. I’m happy to serve.]
Since meeting Zack, my life became drastically different. I went from feeling despair and self-hatred to living a life of love for myself and others. I can’t believe I am able to say that I actually have faith in the Universe. After our twin flame unity, my life just knew where to align itself. It’s as if once combined, our energetic frequencies leveled each other out and placed us in moments of life together to become stronger, healthier, and happier. It happened so effortlessly, too!
“There was no separation stage in our twin flame relationship.”
Oh, and there was no separation stage in our twin flame relationship. We knew right from the beginning that we’d stay together through everything. His unconditional love for me guided him be my rock throughout all the chaos I was expressing within our relationship. Amidst the chaos he expressed, “You know, I love you as if you were my own daughter.” Meaning, he accepted me for everything I was and put his ego aside simply because he saw me as apart of himself.
“Miracles can come in different forms and we desperately deserve them to reverse how society has tainted our spirits.”
When I was a kid, things flowed easily for me. Everything was simple and fun and I couldn’t wait to wake up the next morning to experience what the day had in store for me. However as I got older, life just became increasingly harder. I slowly stopped accepting the gracious flow of the Universe and I started believing in pain, lies, and misconceptions of what humans had to offer instead of the Universe. It was my upbringing and the things I was taught that led me to suicidal habits. Had it not been for Zack, I would have given up on life not too long ago. As a side note, I want to let you all know that I don’t want my story to be about: “Wait for your twin flame and they’ll change your life.” Miracles can come in different forms and we desperately deserve them to reverse how society has tainted our spirits. Anyone deserves miracles because God makes them, for God’s sake! Pun intended.
The reason why I wrote this blog is because I want you to have hope. I want you to know that hope exists and pain doesn’t have to be forever. You can get out of whatever it is you’re feeling, trust me. The Universe loves you and will help you do that. Also, if you’re looking at this blog now deeply wishing for a life partner like I did a few years ago, I wouldn’t be surprised if the Universe has a twin flame in store for you.
My life took a 180 turn and I’m much happier, more at ease, and gracious with myself than I was then. Let my story be a reminder of hope to you. Your dreams are written in the stars and God and the angels are waiting for you to walk into your gifts. That is, into who you truly are. Thank you for reading. 💗